insomnia? wake up!! face with reality asyrani!!!

argghh....feels like years i post nothing here....hmmm....last week was the hardest for me.....i really cant sleep....i guess more than a week....it not that i watch movie....it just i cant sleep....im sleepy but i cant sleep...there something always on my mind...make me thinking how to solve this matter....i guess everyone must have a dream....i have many dreams...but seems like im thinking this path already....i want to make it long go....but....it is only fantasy....i cant hold my fantasy but i can with reality. however the most painful is the reality is truly hurting me....my makcik said "gwenchana chingu, theres nothing to regret if u sacrifice yourself only for them...once again i neglected my feelings to make someone else happy.since no one ask about my dreams, let dream remain and face with reality....yah siti nur asyrani...there is nothing you can do...i already make decision...n i cant turn back anymore....after all im still cheerful....i have to cheer people around me. i hope after that decision i cant have a nice slumber sleep again...to gain more energy to face with the reality tomorrow......(^_^)